[but his voice wavers, falls into a murmur, when sousuke continues; makes it clear that he knows exactly what is wrong and that he doesn't need makoto holding his hand through the process. that's not how sousuke works.]
[so it feels distant, what he's giving; it feels small, what he knows. he knows plenty--but sousuke yamazaki, as he's come in this time, a turmoil of emotions, is not one of the many things he knows.]
[makoto knows this is an invitation to shut up and go away, because makoto can't possibly understand. so instead, he changes gears.]
...then, Rin being here three years without you, from your point of view, it's ... just the same as before. [it's not anyone's fault this time, though] But, Rin wanted you to be here, all these years. He always looked for you at the start of each month. He doesn't want you not to follow him this time.
Re: action, weekend
[but his voice wavers, falls into a murmur, when sousuke continues; makes it clear that he knows exactly what is wrong and that he doesn't need makoto holding his hand through the process. that's not how sousuke works.]
[so it feels distant, what he's giving; it feels small, what he knows. he knows plenty--but sousuke yamazaki, as he's come in this time, a turmoil of emotions, is not one of the many things he knows.]
[makoto knows this is an invitation to shut up and go away, because makoto can't possibly understand. so instead, he changes gears.]
...then, Rin being here three years without you, from your point of view, it's ... just the same as before. [it's not anyone's fault this time, though] But, Rin wanted you to be here, all these years. He always looked for you at the start of each month. He doesn't want you not to follow him this time.